07.30.08

Awaited Explanation

Posted in Blog General at 7:44 pm by Moorcat

I have been asked many times - both in person and through email - why I stopped posting for months. It is only fair that I give an explanation.

Loss of my Hosting Service -

I could easily step back and blame it all on the loss of my hosting service. They did shut my server down and it was done without notification or warning. I have still not been able to get them to release my files back to me (or give me a decent explanation of why they did it) so that I can put up the archive of previous posts. While I will be able to get those posts back at a later time through another avenue, those posts are - for the moment - only saved in hardcopy.

I am happy to report that I do have a new hosting service and I am quite happy with them. The new hosting service is located fairly locally (in Utah) and has excellent customer service with an actual phone number I can call to resolve any issues that do come up.

All that said - that is not the real reason I stopped posting.

Objectivity -

Any citizen reporter has some bias that regularly appears in their writing. I am no exception. I try to report the facts - as I see or know them - but even the most objective of us is biased in some way. I make it clear that I have issues with the way Government works in Dillon but…

After my arrest - orchestrated by Mayor Malesich and Former Councilman Troadsson - I got angry. Not just a little angry - a LOT angry. My posts relating to Mayor Malesich and the Dillon City Government began to reflect that anger. I was no longer able to maintain even the semblance of objectivity. Each new perfidy performed by Malesich and Dillon Government simply made matters worse. I completely skipped over the good things that the Dillon City Council attempted to do and I certainly focused on the bad. It began to effect me - personally - and I was actually getting physically sick after attending City Council Meetings.

My heart attack was a wake up call. Even though my Doctor cannot even tell me for sure that I had a heart attack, it was certainly real enough for me. I am glad that the battery of tests came back saying I was extremely healthy - in fact, far more healthy than I should be given my age and lifestyle - but it was time to do some re-evaluation of my life and how I was living it. One of those things I had to evaluate was how blogging about the Dillon City Government was effecting my health.

Return to Blogging

I made the decision to return to blogging about the City Government because I feel it is important. The things being perpetrated against the Citizens of Dillon need to be reported - but so does the good the Dillon City Council accomplishes. I needed to return to some semblance of objectivity in my reporting about the things happening. More importantly, I had to get past the anger I felt about the personal attack made on me by Malesich and Troedsson.

I have taken what steps I can in dealing with that situation and I have let it go. What happens now is up to other people but I can finally let go of the anger because I know I have done what I can do. It is time to move on to other things.

I can now blog about the City Government without getting sick or take the situations personally. I will still get angry when I feel that the Dillon City Government does something wrong or illegal - it is my nature - but I will no longer take it as a personal attack on myself. I will be happier for it and my family will breath easier because I am no longer heading at breakneck speed for another heart attack.

Hopefully this explains my absence from the blogging world, and I hope that my writing will be better for having experienced it.

Moorcat

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